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Minimal simple exercise to lose the pounds

I am clearly not the person to give advise. I cannot tell you what to do but I'll tell you what I did. Here's a back story. I had birth my children when I was still young. I was skinny and it made me conscious because I don't look like a mother instead I look like an older sister to my children- and it's not flattering. Teachers, Social workers and Doctors doesn't seemed to trust my own children with me because I look like a kid myself. So I piled on weight. At the same time my divorce was finalized and I was free. I was also started on medication. After a few months I had gained 20 kg and I became overweight. I intended for a little weight gain but not being obese. I look at the mirror and I was devastated. Over the years, in my twenties I battled weight gained and depleting confidence. Then the pandemic came. It was during the fasting month of Ramadhan that I started working out after breaking my fast. I lost only two kilos. Then when the lock down was slowly redu...
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People I don't identify with


I am a mom but I'm not a parent.
I had the empty nest syndrome 
many years back.

I was a housewife.
I'm no longer a wife.
So I'm now a homebody.

I cook but I'm not a chef.
Even if it's made of instant 
gravy paste with recipes 
crafted by a chef.

I'm a student but I'm not a youth.
I'm a late learner.
Everyone has opportunities at
different times in life.

I'm dating but I don't have 
the intention of marrying.
I haven't met someone who
will compromise when I
have issues.

Some women carve out their lives 
to be perfect wives and mothers,
or either one, depending on situations.

Some women pride in their jobs
because it's lasting impact on
societies and communities.
Nobody will remember you as that
good cook during family dinners.
But people will remember the woman
who brings the company million
dollars ventures.

I can't relate to neither of these.

All my childhood memories are of me being sick with fever, sometimes twice 
a month- like every month.
Nobody question much when a child
gets sick easily.
Except one good Doctor.
He made my grandma signed for
a blood test.
I had anemia. 
Eventually I can't remember why,
the whole extended family went 
for blood testing.
Some had anemia. Some thelassimia.

I had struggled with dyslexia for a while 
and I thought I was stressed up and 
so had fevers.
I thought my brains were fried up.

I felt crippled by the fact that 
I'm never going to hold a job
I'll never buy my dream house 
I don't know if I can afford food
I don't know if I'll move out
of my parents'

But I tried.
Is my whole being tied to
the fact I'm always sick?
No.
My cousins always remembered 
me playing soccer with them.

I never truly relate with anybody.
I try being likable.
To blend in? Yes.
To fit in? Never.

~I'll be what I need to be
to whom I need to be, to fulfill my
responsibilities 
without sacrificing my worth.~
@chirpbirdee







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