Skip to main content

Minimal simple exercise to lose the pounds

I am clearly not the person to give advise. I cannot tell you what to do but I'll tell you what I did. Here's a back story. I had birth my children when I was still young. I was skinny and it made me conscious because I don't look like a mother instead I look like an older sister to my children- and it's not flattering. Teachers, Social workers and Doctors doesn't seemed to trust my own children with me because I look like a kid myself. So I piled on weight. At the same time my divorce was finalized and I was free. I was also started on medication. After a few months I had gained 20 kg and I became overweight. I intended for a little weight gain but not being obese. I look at the mirror and I was devastated. Over the years, in my twenties I battled weight gained and depleting confidence. Then the pandemic came. It was during the fasting month of Ramadhan that I started working out after breaking my fast. I lost only two kilos. Then when the lock down was slowly redu...
Post a Comment

The Bridal Dais


A space like this makes me smile.
It reminds me of the bridal dais.

Do I wish to marry?
Was I worried about being alone?
Do I need someone to care for me?
Am I happy?

But....
Why do I need someone around?
Why do I need to care for someone's 
laundry, meals, cleanliness?
Wouldn't it burden me more if
there's two of us?

Can I be happy on my own?
Yes. I'm perfectly fine.

I'm not against people remarrying.
I'm happy for those who do.
I just don't understand -
How people remarry more than twice.

What are they looking for?
Some help around the house?
Company in bed?
A best friend?
A confidant?

Well, these are what I'm 
looking for too...
But it doesn't have to be in a
bundled packaged of one.
These can be different people.

An all rounder will break
me if should he leaves.
Too dependent. Too needy.
That's what I am.
What I was.

I stop looking for these people 
to fill my life anymore.
I don't want to be a people pleaser.
I don't want to be an enabler for
anybody, anymore.
I don't have to always be nice.
Therefore, I quit.
I walked away.

When I walk for miles,
I quiet the chatter in my head.
Feel what's bothering my heart.
Then I let go with every step.

Where's that driven girl?
What she's up to these days?
Where's that hopeful girl?
Trying to succeed in life.
What is success, anyways?

If success is monetary..
Well, it can be burned to ashes.
Is success about being able to 
afford traveling the world?
Maybe.
Is success about being able to 
afford comforts- more than
what you need to have?
For you, maybe.

What is success for me?
Success for me-
To stop feeling not enough.
To stop struggling with basic needs.
When I had achieve these already,
Have I reached success?
Or is there more?
Do I need more?

What I need now is to feel-
Contented and Gratefulness.
Thankful and accept life's
grace from God.
To learn to feel love. 
To learn to feel alive.
I'll count my blessings.

Do I need more?

~My name is what I'm called.
It doesn't define or tell you the 
person that I am. I am who I am to you,
but I'm always different to different people.~
@chirpbirdee





Pin it!






Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Chaotic mess too but I found me back

I found me lost, stranded by the road. With no money on me. And nobody that I know. I sat down with my head low. I found me hungry, and nothing to cook at all. My kitchen is complete but food was non. How did I become so poor? Didn't I do a checklist before? I found me helpless, looking like a bum. I'm so shabby and dreadful. I feel sick. The pain is in my skull. I found me walking, aimless again. I need a cure for my heart. I'm yearning for my children again. I know where they are- at their father's house. I found me strength, that's how I began. My children have grown. I need to stop looking for my mini me. They don't need a babysitter. They need their mother. I found me courage, that's how I take a stand. I won't let anyone break my heart. I won't be sad. I won't let anyone mock me anymore. I won't let anyone push me over anymore. I found me meek, that's how I woman up. I need to speak up. I have to say what I need. I know w...
Post a Comment
Read more

Self talk when you are depressed

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but I think it's great that you're seeking ways to lift yourself up. Here's an approach to self-talk that could help: Acknowledge Your Feelings "I know I’m feeling really low right now, and that's okay. It’s normal to have difficult days, and it’s important to honor how I feel." Challenge Negative Thoughts "I’m noticing a lot of negative thoughts swirling around. These thoughts don’t define me. They’re temporary, and I have the power to shift my focus toward something more positive." Remind Yourself of Your Strengths "I’ve been through hard times before and have come out stronger. I have the strength within me to get through this, even if I can’t feel it fully right now." Focus on Small Wins "Today, I can take one small step toward feeling better. Maybe that’s going for a short walk, drinking a glass of water, or taking a deep breath. Each small step is progress." Be Ki...
Post a Comment
Read more

Setting boundaries

Setting healthy boundaries is essential for maintaining emotional, mental, and physical well-being.  Here are 10 types of boundaries you should consider having with others: Emotional Boundaries: Protect your emotional energy by limiting how much you share or absorb from others. Don’t allow others to guilt or manipulate you into feeling responsible for their emotions. Physical Boundaries: Define your comfort levels regarding physical touch and personal space. You have the right to say no to unwanted physical contact. Time Boundaries: Value your time by setting limits on how much you give to others, whether at work, with friends, or in relationships. It's okay to decline requests if it encroaches on your personal time. Mental Boundaries: Protect your beliefs, thoughts, and opinions. You don’t have to agree with others or be pressured into thinking the way they do. Mental boundaries also include protecting your mental health from toxic conversations or influences. Material...
Post a Comment
Read more